| "Being gay is not something you can BE, Its something you ARE"
qoute by: Dirk D. Heishman
I hate people who put people in catagories, it makes me so mad and hurt. Why does it make me hurt you ask. Because yes i am gay, but dont try a classify me as one who sleeps around and hits on straight guys, because that isnt me. I am Dirk yes i am gay BUT i am not a slut. I would love to see one you people try to walk a day in my shoes, I know that sound corny, but i would love it because then you would see it isnt easy. Its not easy being an openly gay person who dresses like a girl, but its me and thats who I am. I am not trying to make people feel sorry about anything, but i do want you to know that when I walk around my town and I hear people talking shit about me, yes it hurts but they only talk about me, because I am there and they have no life. No one actually knows the real me, because know wants to take time to know the real me. Everyone likes to be my friend, because they wanna show me off like I am so kind of freak show. And yes I know some of you think I am and thats fine. But I am not, I am human and I have feelings. Its hard to tell anyone about my life, because the friends i had stabbed me in my back left and right. They made it to where I cant trust people and that hurts. Because by me not trusting people I am losing alot of friends. Well I am finaly trying to get over that because of one person from my past "Thank You Ashley Stanley You Were My True Friend". And today was a hard day for me for some reason. Today I thought about taking my life, but then i realized how many people that would hurt, and yet I also thought about how many people would prolly be happy I died. But I dont want to make them happy. I want to make the people who actually care about me happy.
I have lost some really good friends and I want them to know I am deeply sorry for what I have done for you to hate me.
I know that my life will never be easy because of who I am. But i wish people would know that I am a good person, I really am.
"Love is a like Life, When you fail always try again"
quote by: Dirk D. Heishman
I am now over Jason and his stupid games I dont deserve to be treated like shit. No one does. I mean I liked him alot, and all he had to say to my best friend was "Well how bout we just fuck and not have a relationship" OK no like I said I am not a whore. I lost one of my really good friends that I have had since I was 2 years old, because of him. He was dating her and then he was at one of my friends houses and he was all over me. Then he cam e and stayed the night and well you guys can put it together from there. But he told me he broke up with her. Well I guess not huh. So now its time to try and find someone new. Someone who wont want me to change for them who will like me for who I am.
Well I am done because this is really long already. Well I hope everyone is ok and doing fine, because I am now I am all better, well kinda but I'll get there. So I love you all<3
D1l2K aKa D1am0nD Pr1nc3s$ - Through The Rain |
